Electronic Theses and Dissertations (Masters)

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Seeking joy – Between Secrecy and Silence in a white Afrikaner Home
(University of the Witwatersrand, Johannesburg, 2024) Greyling, Marcia Elizabeth; Goliath, Gabrielle; Christopher, Natasha
This mapping practice reveals how biomythography, theoretical enquiry and making can reveal a complex narrative of Afrikaner whiteness and its relationship to silence and secrecy. Themes of secrets and silences indicate the discomfort of witnessing discrimination and by virtue of speaking out, facing rejection and alienation along with those you defended. The image of the unhappy queer child speaking out at the dinner table against the “in group” is employed as visual metaphor. Self-portraiture finds expression in self-writing, performance and transgressive acts representing the tools acquired in my search for a self-affirming identity. My practice is an intentional repetition symbolising therapeutic disclosures; often repeated through voicing in order to work through trauma. A confessional divulges itself, both hidden yet exposed. A haunting insidiousness manifesting as what is not disclosed relates to concealment, protecting family secrets and the silencing repercussions of truth seeking and fearless speech. Opening up a conversation, this writing does not desire to suggest answers about changing whiteness as bad habit. Rather, I bring what is lurking in the background of white actions to the family table for an open disclosure. I am the source of the family’s dis-ease as I reveal a difficult, painful and uncomfortable conversation in which we must face our whiteness. In this explorative manner I keep open the force of this critical engagement and invite participation in this reparative work. I examine how we are stuck in the bad habit of whiteness as a study of self. Through this self-determined act, may I find joy.
SHE LINES: The Duel/Duet of Eros and Thanatos in The Act of Drawing Desire: as an expanded Drawing practice
(University of the Witwatersrand, Johannesburg, 2021) Pam-Grant, Sue; Christopher, Natasha
SHE LINES The Duel/Duet of Eros & Thanatos in the Act of Drawing Desire as an expanded drawing practice. In my self-reflexive act of ‘Seeking Susan’, through the explorative act of Drawing Desire, I am drawing in my ‘She Lines’ through the act of (un)packing the Russian Cupping Doll as artistic process-as-practice. This performative disquisition is a self-reflexive, transdisciplinary exploration of Desire, Identity, Loss and Line as it presents through the psychoanalytic ‘Acting-Out’ process in the creative impulse of my expanded drawing practice. Through the act of both ‘Drawing out Psyche’ and ‘Drawing in Psyche’, the creative research interrogates the activating/acting role Eros and Thanatos play in my creative practice. What does the Duel/Duet of Eros and Thanatos look like in the Artist’s ‘Every Love Story’? Women’s imaginary is inexhaustible (Cixous 1976:877) I am reimagining the ‘drawn line’ as it traverses across disciplines and spaces, beyond the recognized traditional and conventional stroke, brush, pencil on paper or canvas. This creative research is an analysis of my transdisciplinary art-making ‘process-aspractice/practice-as-process’. It takes shape and form as a performative proposition: Conversations in Constellations /Constellations in Conversation Through my praxis and practice of mapping, tracking and unpacking, this ‘performance on paper’ analytically examines how, in positioning transdisciplinary process-as-practice in the space of the (in)between, new ‘She Lines’ emerge through ‘Drawing Beyond the Line’ in the performative Act of Drawing Desire.